the madness + rollercoaster

I’ve been havin’ dreams Jumpin’ on a trampoline Flippin’ in the air I never land, just float there As I’m looking up Suddenly the sky erupts Flames alight the trees Spread to fallin’ leaves Now they’re right upon me Wait if I’m on fire How am I so deep in love? When I dream of…

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addiction + rebirth + legend

legend. i will be…. Take a look around me Taking pages from a magazine Been looking for the answers Ever since I was thirteen You know the truth can be a weapon To fight this world of ill intentions A new answer to the same question How many times will I learn the same lesson?…

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addiction + rebirth

just be fine. be happy… they say. 25 years of survival mood. He wants good – not evil. I want what is good, not evil. I want to choose and be in control. I want to be able to react and take THE moment and set the trauma aside. “Thanks trauma. For sharing. Not right…

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yahweh

This article is about the national god of the Iron Age kingdoms of Israel and Judah. For the modern Jewish conception of Yahweh, see God in Judaism and God in Abrahamic religions. For the name “YHWH” and its vocalization, see Tetragrammaton. For other uses, see Yahweh (disambiguation). Iron Age II (1000–586 BCE) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yahweh Painting on a jar found at Kuntillet Ajrud,…

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om

be "crazy"

Om (or Aum) (listen (help·info); Sanskrit: ॐ, ओम्, romanized: Ōṃ) is the sound of a sacred spiritual symbol in Indic religions. The meaning and connotations of Om vary between the diverse schools within and across the various traditions. It is part of the iconography found in ancient and medieval era manuscripts, temples, monasteries, and spiritual retreats in Hinduism, Buddhism, Jainism, and Sikhism.[1][2] As a syllable, it is often chanted either…

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7 stages of grief

Going Through the Process and Back to Life When you lose someone you love, it’s hard to imagine life without them. Every loss comes with pain and adjustments we need to make. You are not alone, and knowing the 7 stages of grief might help you see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is…

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cPTSD

Many who have cPTSD struggle in differentiating between what’s safe and secure, versus what’s familiar and comfortable. Trauma comes back as a Reaction, not a Memory. https://medium.com/invisible-illness/the-reasons-people-with-complex-ptsd-self-isolate-846266b52a6d “Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort.” – Bessel van der Kolk It’s “Safe”. The biggest A-ha! is that by staying isolated we feel safe.…

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music to my ears

Every day I’ve got a smile where my frown goes A couple bodies in the garden where the grass grows I take ’em with me to the grave in a suitcase Maybe I could be a different human in a new place Oh I just wanna feel something, tell me where to go ‘Cause everybody…

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