dear dad

dear dad, its been a while. do you feel me? the pain that i live? doesn’t it hurt you like it hurts me? wish you could have reached the nirvana you seek. mistakes, addictions, disorders and labels aside… i miss you. i would give almost anything to be with you. i never said goodbye. i…

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addiction + rebirth + legend

legend. i will be…. Take a look around me Taking pages from a magazine Been looking for the answers Ever since I was thirteen You know the truth can be a weapon To fight this world of ill intentions A new answer to the same question How many times will I learn the same lesson?…

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addiction + rebirth

just be fine. be happy… they say. 25 years of survival mood. He wants good – not evil. I want what is good, not evil. I want to choose and be in control. I want to be able to react and take THE moment and set the trauma aside. “Thanks trauma. For sharing. Not right…

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7 stages of grief

Going Through the Process and Back to Life When you lose someone you love, it’s hard to imagine life without them. Every loss comes with pain and adjustments we need to make. You are not alone, and knowing the 7 stages of grief might help you see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is…

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cPTSD

Many who have cPTSD struggle in differentiating between what’s safe and secure, versus what’s familiar and comfortable. Trauma comes back as a Reaction, not a Memory. https://medium.com/invisible-illness/the-reasons-people-with-complex-ptsd-self-isolate-846266b52a6d “Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort.” – Bessel van der Kolk It’s “Safe”. The biggest A-ha! is that by staying isolated we feel safe.…

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grief & the 7 stages to heal

grief How long does it take to go through the 7 stages of grief? How long do the seven stages of grief last? There is no set time for how long the process of grieving should last. For some people, the process may take several weeks. For others, it may be years. The 7 stages of grief…

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