borderline between emotional & logical realities

chapter one let’s start in the middle. sometimes, when the wind blows it destroys. i’ve found the pain that simmers in my gut. the fear of waking at 2:00 am and not being able to save myself… or him again. death in sleep is expected. but let’s be logical, shall we? my reality is bleak.…

In Retrospect

borderline between what & what?

black and white. realities – emotional – virtual – logical. i am in purgatory. https://youtu.be/mfM-DYz95ZU https://www.cosmopolitan.com/uk/body/health/a30327/living-with-borderline-personality-disorder/ “Having the diagnosis was such a relief – it confirmed for me why from such a young age I have reacted, felt and thought the way I do.” The worst parts of BPD for her are “dealing with rejection…

In Retrospect

dear dad

dear dad, its been a while. do you feel me? the pain that i live? doesn’t it hurt you like it hurts me? wish you could have reached the nirvana you seek. mistakes, addictions, disorders and labels aside… i miss you. i would give almost anything to be with you. i never said goodbye. i…

In Retrospect

Chapter 1

Borderline Personaility Disorder Borderline between what and what? Been wondering why I have cried myself to sleep most of my life. Seems my thoughts trigger personalities and mood swings like a bitch. Journaling is a safe place. This is the beginning of something scary, challenging, interesting and required. It is not going to be easy.…

In Retrospect

brought the needle

brought the needle you brought the needle & i brought the thread. we meant to mend our two broken hearts, but we ended up stitching them together.

In Retrospect