SEIZE THY POWER

Hebrew – לתפוס את כוחך Greek – άρπαξε τη δύναμή σου Arabic – الاستيلاء على قوتك Latin – carpe potentiam tuam I was able to take my compassion and revert stubbornness Courage is to have fear and do it anyway. Emotional – emotional mind – Logical – reasonable mind – 4816 YONAKA – Seize the…

In Retrospect

borderline between emotional & logical realities

chapter one let’s start in the middle. sometimes, when the wind blows it destroys. i’ve found the pain that simmers in my gut. the fear of waking at 2:00 am and not being able to save myself… or him again. death in sleep is expected. but let’s be logical, shall we? my reality is bleak.…

In Retrospect

borderline between what & what?

black and white. realities – emotional – virtual – logical. i am in purgatory. https://youtu.be/mfM-DYz95ZU https://www.cosmopolitan.com/uk/body/health/a30327/living-with-borderline-personality-disorder/ “Having the diagnosis was such a relief – it confirmed for me why from such a young age I have reacted, felt and thought the way I do.” The worst parts of BPD for her are “dealing with rejection…

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dear dad

dear dad, its been a while. do you feel me? the pain that i live? doesn’t it hurt you like it hurts me? wish you could have reached the nirvana you seek. mistakes, addictions, disorders and labels aside… i miss you. i would give almost anything to be with you. i never said goodbye. i…

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issues

issues lyrics I’m jealousI’m overzealousWhen I’m downI get real downWhen I’m high, I don’t come downI get angryBaby, believe meI could love you just like thatAnd I could leave you just this fast But you don’tJudge me‘Cause if you did, babyI would judge you tooNo, you don’t judge me‘Cause if you did, babyI would judge…

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artemis

artemis underground is life changing for me. the song represents not only my pain, but the calm in between. since having to search for my selfworth is harder than anything i have done in my life – between twight brings reassurance that everything will work out. the sadness is still lingering however there is a…

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Chapter 2

I was thinking about superheros and how… they all thypically have some sort of mental disorder. no judgements here. Batman seems to be one that is a classic borderline personality with possible egotistic issues mixed in. I relate to Ms. Harley Quinn. Seems she was traumatized almost as bad as Batman as a young child/adult.…

In Retrospect

brought the needle

brought the needle you brought the needle & i brought the thread. we meant to mend our two broken hearts, but we ended up stitching them together.

In Retrospect