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SEIZE THY POWER
By thecuriousintellect |
Hebrew – לתפוס את כוחך Greek – άρπαξε τη δύναμή σου Arabic – الاستيلاء على قوتك Latin – carpe potentiam tuam I was able to take my compassion and revert stubbornness Courage is to have fear and do it anyway. Emotional – emotional mind – Logical – reasonable mind – 4816 YONAKA – Seize the…
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not sure where to begin…
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… but i remember the moment everything changed. the memories are coming and going… some here to stay and others willing to hide from the obvious mind. I’ve been told that I am strong. from a young age, i have had to hide a lot of myself in order to survive. emotions run deep and…
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borderline between emotional & logical realities
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chapter one let’s start in the middle. sometimes, when the wind blows it destroys. i’ve found the pain that simmers in my gut. the fear of waking at 2:00 am and not being able to save myself… or him again. death in sleep is expected. but let’s be logical, shall we? my reality is bleak.…
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borderline between what & what?
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black and white. realities – emotional – virtual – logical. i am in purgatory. https://youtu.be/mfM-DYz95ZU https://www.cosmopolitan.com/uk/body/health/a30327/living-with-borderline-personality-disorder/ “Having the diagnosis was such a relief – it confirmed for me why from such a young age I have reacted, felt and thought the way I do.” The worst parts of BPD for her are “dealing with rejection…
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I was thinking about…
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the way life doesn’t change unless I am in the drivers seat. Oceanic Inspiration Winding veils round their heads, the women walked on deck. They were now moving steadily down the river, passing the dark shapes of ships at anchor, and London was a swarm of lights with a pale yellow canopy drooping above it.…
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dear dad
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dear dad, its been a while. do you feel me? the pain that i live? doesn’t it hurt you like it hurts me? wish you could have reached the nirvana you seek. mistakes, addictions, disorders and labels aside… i miss you. i would give almost anything to be with you. i never said goodbye. i…
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flustered
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flustered today doesn’t seem fair. life isn’t. shouldn’t expect to be on it everyday. today i am all over the place. simple mistakes chock me like a nouse would. i am tired of feeling lost. i wish that everything would make sense inside my mind. its troublesome and tiring being lost all the time. i…
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issues
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issues lyrics I’m jealousI’m overzealousWhen I’m downI get real downWhen I’m high, I don’t come downI get angryBaby, believe meI could love you just like thatAnd I could leave you just this fast But you don’tJudge me‘Cause if you did, babyI would judge you tooNo, you don’t judge me‘Cause if you did, babyI would judge…
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artemis
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artemis underground is life changing for me. the song represents not only my pain, but the calm in between. since having to search for my selfworth is harder than anything i have done in my life – between twight brings reassurance that everything will work out. the sadness is still lingering however there is a…
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Chapter 2
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I was thinking about superheros and how… they all thypically have some sort of mental disorder. no judgements here. Batman seems to be one that is a classic borderline personality with possible egotistic issues mixed in. I relate to Ms. Harley Quinn. Seems she was traumatized almost as bad as Batman as a young child/adult.…
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Chapter 1
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Borderline Personaility Disorder Borderline between what and what? Been wondering why I have cried myself to sleep most of my life. Seems my thoughts trigger personalities and mood swings like a bitch. Journaling is a safe place. This is the beginning of something scary, challenging, interesting and required. It is not going to be easy.…
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alone ashley
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alone ashley she isn’t very outgoing. it is just her nature. seems life taught her to be quiet and meek. being alone has its pros and being an introvert – its comforting. the thing is, she is lonely at times. she wants to be around people however the thought is just too exhausting. being abandoned…
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angry angie
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angry angie so where do we start with angry angie? she is a bitch, man. straight up. doesn’t want to hear a sound once the red light spots start to appear. responsible rachel is her best friend and they are two peas in a pod. stressed sally likes to show up out of no where…
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fiction
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fiction the ocean i dive headfirst into when i can no longer breathe in reality. – a mermaid escapist II
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brought the needle
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brought the needle you brought the needle & i brought the thread. we meant to mend our two broken hearts, but we ended up stitching them together.
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immense tragedies
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the world had become so used to immense tragedies that we hardly even notice them anymore.
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crazy dance
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https://www.anxiety.org/what-is-dance-movement-therapy https://www.instagram.com/mimles/?hl=en
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the princess saves herself in this one
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the princess saved herself in this one i am caught between mourning you & thinking your death saved me. -will you ever be able to forgive me? Amanda Lovelace a girl unable to bring herself to cry because if she finally cries then that means it really happened. Amanda Lovelace so many hours days months…
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horus
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Horus Horus or Heru, Hor, Har in Ancient Egyptian, is one of the most significant ancient Egyptian deities who served many functions, most notably as god of kingship and the sky. He was worshipped from at least the late prehistoric Egypt until the Ptolemaic Kingdom and Roman Egypt. Different forms of Horus are recorded in history, and these are treated as distinct gods by Egyptologists.[5] These various forms may…
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osiris
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Osiris Osiris (/oʊˈsaɪrɪs/, from Egyptian wsjr, Coptic: ⲟⲩⲥⲓⲣⲉ, romanized: Ousire)[2][3] is the god of fertility, agriculture, the afterlife, the dead, resurrection, life, and vegetation in ancient Egyptian religion. He was classically depicted as a green-skinned deity with a pharaoh’s beard, partially mummy-wrapped at the legs, wearing a distinctive atef crown, and holding a symbolic crook and flail.[4] He was one of the first to be associated with the mummy wrap. When his brother, Set, cut…
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isis
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Isis Isis (Ancient Egyptian: ꜣst; Coptic: Ⲏⲥⲉ Ēse; Classical Greek: Ἶσις; Meroitic: 𐦥𐦣𐦯 Wos[a] or Wusa) was a major goddess in ancient Egyptian religion whose worship spread throughout the Greco-Roman world. Isis was first mentioned in the Old Kingdom (c. 2686 – c. 2181 BCE) as one of the main characters of the Osiris myth, in which she resurrects her slain brother and husband, the divine king Osiris, and produces and protects his heir, Horus. She was believed to help…
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portal: ancient egypt
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Portal:Ancient_Egypt
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ancient egyptian deities
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Ancient Egyptian deities are the gods and goddesses worshipped in ancient Egypt. The beliefs and rituals surrounding these gods formed the core of ancient Egyptian religion, which emerged sometime in prehistory. Deities represented natural forces and phenomena, and the Egyptians supported and appeased them through offerings and rituals so that these forces would continue to function according to maat, or divine order. After the founding of the…
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hellenistic
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The Hellenistic period spans the period of Mediterranean history between the death of Alexander the Great in 323 BC and the emergence of the Roman Empire, as signified by the Battle of Actium in 31 BC[1] and the conquest of Ptolemaic Egypt the following year.[2] The period of Greece prior to the Hellenistic era is known as Classical Greece, while the period afterwards is known as Roman Greece. The Ancient Greek word Hellas (Ἑλλάς, Hellás) was originally…
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the madness + rollercoaster
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I've been havin' dreams Jumpin' on a trampoline Flippin' in the air I never land, just float there As I'm looking up Suddenly the sky erupts Flames alight the trees Spread to fallin' leaves Now they're right upon me Wait if I'm on fire How am I so deep in love? When I dream of…
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addiction + rebirth + legend
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legend. i will be…. Take a look around me Taking pages from a magazine Been looking for the answers Ever since I was thirteen You know the truth can be a weapon To fight this world of ill intentions A new answer to the same question How many times will I learn the same lesson?…
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addiction + rebirth
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just be fine. be happy… they say. 25 years of survival mood. He wants good – not evil. I want what is good, not evil. I want to choose and be in control. I want to be able to react and take THE moment and set the trauma aside. “Thanks trauma. For sharing. Not right…
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yahweh
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This article is about the national god of the Iron Age kingdoms of Israel and Judah. For the modern Jewish conception of Yahweh, see God in Judaism and God in Abrahamic religions. For the name “YHWH” and its vocalization, see Tetragrammaton. For other uses, see Yahweh (disambiguation). Iron Age II (1000–586 BCE) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yahweh Painting on a jar found at Kuntillet Ajrud,…
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allah
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God in Islam Allah (/ˈæl.lə, ˈɑːl.lə, əˈl.lɑː/;[1][2] Arabic: اللَّٰه, romanized: Allāh, IPA: [ʔaɫ.ɫaːh] (listen)) is the common Arabic word for God. In the English language, the word generally refers to God in Islam.[3][4][5] The word is thought to be derived by contraction from al–ilāh, which means “the god”, and is linguistically related to the Aramaic words Elah and Syriac ܐܲܠܵܗܵܐ (ʼAlāhā) and the Hebrew word El (Elohim) for God.[6][7] The word Allah has been used by Arabic people of different religions since pre-Islamic times.[8] The pre-Islamic Arabs worshipped a supreme deity whom they…
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el (deity)
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ʼĒl (also ‘Il, Ugaritic: 𐎛𐎍 ʾīl; Phoenician: 𐤀𐤋 ʾīl;[3] Hebrew: אֵל ʾēl; Syriac: ܐܺܝܠ ʾīyl; Arabic: إيل ʾīl or إله ʾilāh; cognate to Akkadian: 𒀭, romanized: ilu) is a Northwest Semitic word meaning “god” or “deity“, or referring (as a proper name) to any one of multiple major ancient Near Eastern deities. A rarer form, ‘ila, represents the predicate form in Old Akkadian and in Amorite.[4] The word is derived from the Proto-Semitic *ʔil-, meaning “god”.[5] Specific deities known as ‘El or ‘Il include the supreme god of the ancient Canaanite…
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names of god
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There are various names of God, many of which enumerate the various qualities of a Supreme Being. The English word god (and its equivalent in other languages) is used by multiple religions as a noun to refer to different deities, or specifically to the Supreme Being, as denoted in English by the capitalized and uncapitalized terms God and god.[1] Ancient cognate equivalents for the biblical Hebrew Elohim, one of the…
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om
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Om (or Aum) (listen (help·info); Sanskrit: ॐ, ओम्, romanized: Ōṃ) is the sound of a sacred spiritual symbol in Indic religions. The meaning and connotations of Om vary between the diverse schools within and across the various traditions. It is part of the iconography found in ancient and medieval era manuscripts, temples, monasteries, and spiritual retreats in Hinduism, Buddhism, Jainism, and Sikhism.[1][2] As a syllable, it is often chanted either…
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7 stages of grief
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Going Through the Process and Back to Life When you lose someone you love, it’s hard to imagine life without them. Every loss comes with pain and adjustments we need to make. You are not alone, and knowing the 7 stages of grief might help you see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is…
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cPTSD
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Many who have cPTSD struggle in differentiating between what’s safe and secure, versus what’s familiar and comfortable. Trauma comes back as a Reaction, not a Memory. https://medium.com/invisible-illness/the-reasons-people-with-complex-ptsd-self-isolate-846266b52a6d “Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort.” – Bessel van der Kolk It’s “Safe”. The biggest A-ha! is that by staying isolated we feel safe.…
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chaos
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chaos Creation from chaos From Chaos came forth Erebus and black Night; but of Night were born Aether and Day, whom she conceived and bore from union in love with Erebus.[19] Main article: Chaos (cosmogony) In creation from chaos myths, initially there is nothing but a formless, shapeless expanse. In these stories the word “chaos” means…
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music to my ears
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Every day I've got a smile where my frown goes A couple bodies in the garden where the grass grows I take 'em with me to the grave in a suitcase Maybe I could be a different human in a new place Oh I just wanna feel something, tell me where to go 'Cause everybody…
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